Who am I?

I know it has been awhile since my last post but…

I thought that I wouldn’t need to post about all of my life’s problems because even with all the shity things that is going on in my life I found, or so I thought, that I absolutely am falling head over heels for. Even though we don’t live close, in two separate states, I would of flown over to Utah in a heartbeat and would of paid for his trips to LA but things never turn out as you want them to. So yesterday I asked him what we were and his response was basically we were nothing, just friends, mainly because we lived so far away, maybe when he moved here to go to school we would be together, that part I completely understood but the part that killed me inside was when I asked him so do you even really like me. his response was yes and when I asked him if he would like me in real life he said I don’t know. I DONT FUCKING KNOW?!?!?!? how the fuck don’t you know! well it seems that I again turn to this blog to profess the complete destruction of my heart. how poetically justifying it is to have one blog about the emotional homicide that occurs in my life so daily and the other blog being used to profess my absolute happiness of finding a Somebody