Who am I?

My Boyfriend

Just woke up and realized that I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take the ambiguity; the mystery of it all; the not knowing; the uncertainty; the lack of hope; the lack of a definitive answer. I think I might break up with you when you get back from your partying. Do I mean nothing to you? Today I came home from a stupid fucking SAT prep school because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was about to cry and when I get home and talk to you all I can do is go wallow in my misery and sleep. Because it is in my slumber that I find numbness. Numbness from all the emotions that you evoke in me. How can it be that I chose to stay home today and sleep most of the day and you choose to go to a party? Should I get over you? but you mean so much to me, even though we’ve only been dating for three weeks you are my first boyfriend. Well I guess I can’t ask you not to have fun, because if I ever did I would want you to break up with me because I want you to have fun always! I care too much for you to see you be in a miserable and hopeless relationship with me. You say I’m being too dramatic but I don’t think so. Should I forget you or try my hardest to keep our relationship, even though you said you didn’t know if you liked me and you are out partying tonight with your friend while I am in bed crying, well not crying now since I ran out of tears and dare not drink anymore water because tears will undoubtedly come?